Well another Christmas has come and gone, and the year is coming closer to its end.

 

I'm getting better at realising that everything in life happens for a reason, and what ever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

  Life is finally getting right on track and to be honest i feel great.

My partner and i are getting over our niggly stage and once again have realised that we do love eachother and couldn't imagine life without one another.

My family are accepting who i've become and i still know who my true friends are.

 

Without those family and friends i wouldnt be who i am today. And i'm greatful for the lessons they have taught me and letting me make decissions for myself. Whether they believe them to be right or wrong.

 

Every night i go to bed remembering:  TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY, and it can only get better from here

 

  Well today was just another day in my life where things just didnt go too well.

 When i start to think that im back on top of things theres something else out there to knock me straight back down again, i honestly dont believe exactly how hard life is sometimes.

   It's funny really when you think about it, you wake up in the morning thinking ok today i can do it. Today will be the day that i fix everything and start a new life. But by the time you wake up properly, have a shower and really start the day all the thoughts you started the day with just go straight back out the window.

  That beautiful sun gives you hope and then takes it away again..

Im really just sick of being pushed around, being told what to do and what not to do, and not being able to run my own life.

    DESTINY and FATE are real. No-one is in control... You just have to sit back take what you get and hopefully when you wake up tomorrow maybe just maybe things will be different..

 Keep smiling, You CREATE you're own happiness. Today may have been a really shit day, but im still alive, still walking around and i guess at the end of the day thats all you can hope for and what you really truly should be grateful for..

 

   The sun doesnt shine anywhere around me, and then one day the sun shone brighter. For the first time in a very long time i feel happy, almost complete and like my life is finally falling into place.

For a while there i wasn't sure who i was anymore. But now i feel as if i'm whole, i know who i am and i almost know what i wanna do and where i wanna be. of course its not here and its not what im doing now, but i know, so i can begin to make my life the way i've always dreamed. I'm no longer trapped in a nothingness.

   It's truly amazing how one day can change it all for someone.

   I'm so grateful for life, you never truly know how awesome it is till you feel like you're losing it. Which is such a shame, but inspiring at the same time. While, life is great and things go your way i really think that people take for granted what wonderful things life has to offer. For once im looking at all the crap that has happened in the past in Bright and bubbly perspective because if it wasn't for all the downs that i have overcome, i wouldnt be who i am now and i'm sure that i would be much worse off.

 

Not really sure if that makes sense to anyone, it doesnt really make sense to me.. But hopefully there's someone out there who understands and shares the same feelings...

 

Dont Ever Take Your Life For Granted Because You Never Know When It Could Be Taken Away.

Well Christmas is just around the corner and i can hardly believe how fast this year has passed by!

Whoever said time flies when you're having fun i guess was telling the truth, theres been some wickedly awesome times through the year. But there has also been some wickedly bad times too.
I have discovered alot about myself over this year, not all good, but you need to take the bad as well, so i accept it now.

I've made alot of new friends and i've lost alot of old. Once again i look at the brighter side of things and losing old friends just means now i know who is true, and makes more space for the new friends i have met and intend to meet in the future.

 

All i can really say that i know right now is that: Life only continues if you Let it... so LET IT BE!